I have to admit I have dabbled with the thoughts of starting my own blog for so long, I cant even remember. I am a procrastinator, or at least I like to think I am. In reality I think I am just bone arse lazy and allow the weeks to go by with the idea I will definitely do something but never actually actively getting my shit together and sorting it out.
The idea hatched a few years back (I told you I was lazy) from a few posts I made on Facebook about the wacky wonder that is London. I am a huge people watcher and the tube provides a hive of activity from the very sweet to the downright mental. The urge to share this with the world became more and more frequent and lots of people started telling me I should document it and write a blog. I thought ‘great idea’ and then about 100 years went by!
The thing is, it had entered my head a few times and it seems easy…..just set up a blog and type……but then I overthink everything.
My friends would say ‘Ali you’re so funny, your take on situations is always hilarious and honest’ (or something to that effect, I may have embellished slightly) which sounds great on paper but then you think, what about if it translates to some vaguely funny crap on paper, or even worse, not funny at all.
You know those moments when you tell a small crowd of people a story from the night before which was side splittingly, wet your pants funny at the time and you get a bunch of awkward smiles……you then make it worse by saying ‘Honestly it was sooooo funny’ to ram home the fact that it was actually brilliantly funny and in turn you get a few charity laughs to help ease the bum clenching awkwardness of the hole you are digging for yourself. The end result is lots of mumbling into your drink while someone desperately changes the subject. Now transfer that to online…….but this time its in front of hundreds of your friends…….THIS is why I probably put it off for so long……fear of making an absolute idiot of myself.
Putting your thoughts, opinions, fears and everything else online is scary. You will of course have people supporting you, but then you will have the trolls and possible disagreements. What if I upset someone with my opinion on something? Will that friendship end up awkward and will we agree to disagree? Will that blog post be forever the huge elephant in the room waving at us every time we meet?
Then I thought to myself, you know what, get over yourself….its a blog. There are a gazillion bloggers in the world…….even 6 year olds are blogging! You are not writing for Vogue or The New York Times and its an outlet to just allow me to write, which is something I love to do but have fallen away from over the past decade. A place to download my (semi-edited) thoughts whenever I wish and hopefully give people a giggle along the way. If not, then fuck it, it can be my own timeline of London and my rants about all the things going on in the world right now – there certainly isnt a shortage of subjects to write on.
Some people will like it, some people will object to things I say, some people will hate it and probably troll the hell out of me! But you know what, I always say I would rather regret doing something and maybe failing, than not doing it at all and looking back from my death bed on a yacht in the Maldives (because thats the plan) thinking, why didnt you just do it?
My posts will probably be serious, funny, definitely angry at some point (I didnt get the nickname Angry Ali for nothing, however I promise I am not a psycho) and they will most certainly not be boring. It will just be a searingly honest, typically Irish view on the world with a sprinkling of sass along the way.
Deep breath and jump…………